Taking stock: Where am I?

It’s been a while since I’ve done a proper progress update, so here it is:

There is now just one month left until my deadline. One single month. I’ve been trying to write every day – looking at my manuscript, reading, editing, drafting – but the bottom line is this: looking at where I am now, I think it’s extremely unlikely that I’ll make it.

Believe me, it’s not easy for me to admit that. I’ve been saying for so long that I want to have a complete draft by the end of this year, and there are so many people now who know about my target. The thought of reaching my birthday and not having a manuscript ready… it physically pains me. I’ve always been hard on myself. My instinct would be to break down and declare myself a failure.

But when I stop and think – really think – about the past year, I know that would be utterly ridiculous. When I first started My Wordy Journey, I had around 25,000 words for my book and I had very little beyond part one (my book is in three). Now, I have over 60,000 words; parts one and two are perhaps 70-75% complete and part three has several key scenes mapped out.

Over the last eleven months I’ve also started to research agents who might be interested in my work and begun familiarising myself with different publishing houses and the people they represent. I’ve attended author events and connected with other writers online. I’ve built up my own non-fiction portfolio as a student writer for Endsleigh, successfully completed my degree and worked a part-time job on the side. I’ve also managed to gain almost 1,000 new subscribers on my Youtube channel and (just about) keep this lovely blog going.

Of course, I’m not out of time yet. I do still have a month and I’m still going to do what I can to meet my deadline. But if on December 21st I can’t happily declare a completed manuscript, I’m not going to spend the day weeping into my pillow. Instead, I’m going to force myself to think about how far I’ve come this past year and everything I have achieved. I’ve got a lot to be proud of. If finishing my book has to go on next year’s list, then so be it.

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Image courtesy of BK on Flickr.

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